AnnaBel's Recipe

What else is there?

2012-01-29T23:52:00.000-08:00

The only magic i still believe is love

2012-01-21T18:16:00.000-08:00

if you need “good karma” to persuade you into being a “good person” then you’re not really being a good person, you’re being selfish…you’re doing the right things for the wrong reasons

Much love from auntie

2011-12-29T22:48:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday dayy baby boy!!! i pray you nothing but the best. You know what they say, 2 is the new 20 ;)

love you <3

Is there anybody out there?

2011-07-16T22:38:00.000-07:00

There is a line between being awake and being asleep that isn't as solid as most people care to think.The point is, reality is relative, and the sooner you learn that, the less it will hurt when you finally realize that your dreams and your nightmares are really all just the same thing.So take that advice, because trust me, it would have been a lot easier if somebody had dished it all out to me first.

God, sometimes I feel like I just need somebody to tell me just exactly how this is supposed to be done; somebody to come here and let me know exactly what I should be doing, exactly what I should be feeling, exactly where I should be going… so this is my final call, and trust me, I'm not usually a beggar, but this time I need it; so please, answer me this:

Is there anybody out there?

I took a deep breath. I had expectations for myself to stay true to my word. how I was going to that, I had no idea, but all I did know was that I was definitely going to do it. I don't know, maybe I just needed some help. Maybe there was somebody, something that I could go out and find to bring back here with me, somebody who would hold my hand through the entire process, tell me exactly what I was supposed to be doing, how I was supposed to do it…The thought was nice, but I wasn't about to get my hopes up. But what was the harm in asking, right?

I closed my eyes, took a couple deep breaths, and whispered it in my heart.

"Is there anybody out there?"

Through still and storm

2011-07-03T05:35:00.000-07:00

I guess I've learned a lot of important lessons today. Some of them better than others, some good, some devastating, but now, sitting here in an otherwise empty hospital lobby, I learned my most important lesson of them all. You see, I was wrong before, there really is hope out there. Even in the darkest of times and the most desolate of places, even when all seems good and lost, you can still find it where you least expect it, like in the arms of somebody you love, or in the guarantee that no matter what, maybe you won't have do this all alone after all.

The so unknown

2011-06-30T05:28:00.000-07:00

She had been there and done it all, and if there was one thing she was good for, it was giving me a nice break from all of those other people trying to give me false hope, trying to tell me that everything was going to be fine when in reality, they had absolutely no idea what I was going through, what I was feeling...

Stop fussing

2011-06-25T05:55:00.000-07:00

you know don't you??

2011-06-16T04:27:00.000-07:00

Don't play your Jedi mind trick on me. you either in or not... that simple.

jangan buat gw keep hanging. I like you so just let me know, thank you.

Tina Fey Is Greek and Also Teutonic, but She Isn’t a Troll

2011-05-15T07:54:00.000-07:00

Heyyo.. Recently, gw lagi kagum banget sama Tina Fey. Don't know her? she's a comedian, play in 30 rocks, looks like Sarah Palin, been doing Sarah Palin on SNL, for a middle level comedian, she does win a LOT of high award.. Dan gw lagi tertarik banget sama bukunya tina fey, yang judulnya Bossypants. I haven't read it yet, fyi. tapi gw rasa itu salah satu buku yang akan gw baca. and as you can guess, secara itu buku yang bikin tina fey, it'll mostly can be categorized as a comedic genre... tapi gw baca ada chapter yang, emmm.. masih bisa sedikiiiit masuk ke category lucu sih, tapi tuh nice banget. I love it. Nah, after i read that, all I'm thinking is, there's no way i didn't share this somehow.. so i thought i posted here 0:) (even though there's probably no one will ever read it anyway, but still.. ;))

"Tina Fey: A Mother's Prayer for Her Daughter"

"First, Lord: No tattoos. May neither Chinese symbol for truth nor Winnie-the-Pooh holding the FSU logo stain her tender haunches. May she be Beautiful but not Damaged, for it’s the Damage that draws the creepy soccer coach’s eye, not the the Beauty. When the Crystal Meth is offered, May she remember the parents who cut her grapes in half And stick with Beer. Guide her, protect her When crossing the street, stepping onto boats, swimming in the ocean, swimming in pools, walking near pools, standing on the nearby subway platform, crossing 86th Street, stepping off of boats, using mall restrooms, getting on and off escalators, driving on country roads while arguing, leaning on large windows, walking in parking lots, riding Ferris wheels, roller-coasters, log flumes, or anything called “Hell Drop,” “Tower of Torture,” or “The Death Spiral Rock N’ Zero G Roll featuring Aerosmith,” and standing on any kind of balcony ever, anywhere, at any age. Lead her away from Acting but not all the way to Finance. Something where she can make her own hours but still feel intellectually fulfilled and get outside sometimes And not have to wear high heels. What would that be, Lord? Architecture? Midwifery? Golf course design? I’m asking You because if I knew, I’d be doing it, Youdammit. May she play the Drums to the fiery rhythm of her Own Heart with the sinewy strength of her Own Arms, so she need Not Lie With Drummers. Grant her a Rough Patch from twelve to seventeen. Let her draw horses and be interested in Barbies for much too long, For Childhood is short — a Tiger Flower blooming Magenta for one day – And Adulthood is long and Dry-Humping in Cars will wait. O Lord, break the Internet forever, That she may be spared the misspelled invective of her peers And the online marketing campaign for Rape Hostel V: Girls Just Wanna Get Stabbed. And when she one day turns on me and calls me a Bitch in front of Hollister, Give me the strength, Lord, to yank her directly into a cab in front of her friends, For I will not have that Shit. I will not have it. And should she choose to be a Mother one day, be my eyes, Lord, That I may see her, lying on a blanket on the floor at 4:50 a.m., all-at-once exhausted, bored, and in love with the little creature whose poop is leaking up its back. “My mother did this for me once,” she will realize as she cleans feces off her baby’s neck. “My mother did this for me.” And the delayed gratitude will wash over her as it does each generation and she will make a Mental note to call me. And she will forget. But I’ll know, because I peeped it with Your God eyes. Amen."

Raisons d‘être

2011-05-12T00:19:00.000-07:00

I’ve been thinking a lot about my raisons d‘être lately (A French phrase meaning ‘reasons for existence’), and at first I was honestly baffled as to whether I had any at all. Nothing came to mind.

But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that I was thinking too hard to come up with something. And then it dawned on me that I can choose anything. Or everything. Because everything could be a raison d‘être as long as I let it be. Finding a book on sale, watching my favorite movie, just have a day to lay around, or spending a day with friends.

As cheesy as it sounds, we really do worry too much about having an all-important reason to live for the rest of our days, when all we should be thinking about is taking one step at a time. A raison d‘être for today, or for that matter, this second or minute or hour. Small steps towards the rest of our life. And if we only compiled all of the reasons for living that we’re more than capable of finding, we’d be able to comprehend that the saying is true— life shouldn’t be measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that takes our breath away.. (yeah, I'm quoting one tree hill one too many.. i need to stop watching that show. *sigh) We have a lot to live for when we open our eyes and just see it.

I’m finally cognizant of the fact that I don’t need to find a reason to live for the rest of my life. I can focus on all the ‘nows’ until they bundle together to form the life I will have lived.

Quiet Little Voices

2011-05-01T06:54:00.000-07:00

To May, a promise

Dear May,

I’m choosing to start writing letters to the months of the year. By the time the next 31 days roll around, you will have thrown me for a loop; so I want to lay down some ground rules. Someone once said that you are the cruelest month, and while I’m trying to not judge you this early on, I have a feeling that you are going to throw me everything you’ve got. Please be gentle, this is one thing I ask.

I realize you have friends, especially all the scoundrels and hail storm. Look, they may seem like good guys, but deep down, they are nothing but destruction. We met a couple times last april. A visit that left me clad in sorrow and despair. It would be in my best interests mentally and socially to not be caught like that again.

You are filled with tests, papers, friendships, stress, and potential romantic interests. And all I can think about is my pathetic love life. Why is it such a social stigma for women to express their feelings? Why must we wait for the man to realize? Because in reality, I’ve got a sweeter than life boy who won’t get his head out of a book long enough to see what is in front of him. These all swirled together make life super confusing and often times frightening. But I will not be defeated. I will take all of these on with strength and bravery. Yes, they may end disastrously, but it will be a beautiful disaster.

So give me all you’ve got.

Love,

hi

2011-04-22T07:11:00.000-07:00

hi... i miss you :')

Landslide

2011-03-15T04:57:00.000-07:00

Dixie Chicks

I took my love and I took it down
I climbed a mountain and I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide brought me down

Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love
Can the child within my heart rise above
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life

Well, I've been afraid of changing 'cause I built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
I'm getting older too
Well...

Well, I've been afraid of changing 'cause I built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
I'm getting older, too
Well I'm getting older too

So, take this love and take it down
Year and if you climb a mountain and ya turn around
And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
Well the landslide brought me down
And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
Well maybe
Well maybe
Well maybe the landslide will bring you down

smoother than rain, easy as pie

2011-02-20T06:40:00.000-08:00

Just in case you haven't figure this out yet. Men need to be hit over the head with things.. sometimes frying pan, mostly love. And don't be afraid to do it.

2011-02-19T17:17:00.000-08:00

“Every girl wants a Prince Charming, and while he may be nice and all, I’m thinking that I’d rather have the guy that’s gonna call at four in the morning just to say hi. Or someone who will stop by my house after just hanging up the phone because he wants to see how I’m really doing, because I said I was fine, but we both know I’m lying. Or the guy who’ll stay home on a Saturday night with me because I’m sick. That guy, that one guy, he may not be Prince Charming to anyone else, but he’d be my hero. My “knight in shining armor.” Anyone who’d rather stay home on a Saturday night and hold my hair while I puke, that’s a hero.”

-via poeticheartche

abcd

2011-01-18T07:09:00.000-08:00

NESHA'S TAKE ON LOVE:

1. It should be unconditionally.

2. It does not alter.

3. It'll never diminished by time, distance, or age. -- i don't believe in "set them free" crap.

4. with that being said, i do believe that if you love someone enough, you WILL know when you have to let them go.

5. you DON'T have to be in relationship to know what love means.

6. and you also DON'T have to be IN LOVE to know what love means.

7. it comes for free

8. one of the honest purest truest thing that there ever is.

9. every body at one point in their life feels like nobody loves them -- not true.

10. at the end of day, it'll all come down to this...

Sights and sounds

2011-01-16T05:07:00.000-08:00

So I just finish reading a couple blog of my friends.... and my sister... (i bet you she's going to freak out if she know I'm following her writing on her blog) and i realize something... i realize that what they're writing, is actually worth of someone time to actually read it. what I'm writing.. well, what I'm writing is usually some random rant or some weird shit about something.. Not that i want anyone to actually read what I'm writing. because if i want people to read, like really read what I'm writing, i can just copy and then paste what I'm writing in my diary to here. that'll be interesting... it will be full of profanity word and gossip that i have on me. --- it just nice to think if what I'm writing here, can bring the same feeling to someone just like when i read someone's writing can bring that perticular feeling to mine.

i believe that a writing, a couple paragraph of some people perspective of some thing can really help you. I'm not even sure help you in what way... it just does. or at least it does to me. and i think its nice to think that a couple lines of what you writing is actually relate able to someone, somewhere who have the exact same feeling, but can't exactly figure it out. its a nice truth.

And with that i vowed myself that i want to be better at this whole writing thing. a few friends of mine said that my writing is actually really good... but i bet maybe they just saying that because I'm their friend and they don't want to hurt my feeling.

So, to those of you who'll never read this, i'll see you later.. xxo

Mary-kate ashley -- pay pey

2011-01-08T08:34:00.000-08:00

they two remind me of my very best friends.. i miss you friends :)

i think we're all in love with the idea of love

2010-12-17T07:18:00.000-08:00

Love seemed to be something to approach with caution. As if you came across a wrapped box & have no idea what it contains. A bomb, maybe. Or a million dollars. I wasn’t even sure what the meaning of the word was. I love chocolate. But love with someone else, an actual person, was another matter. I don't know... its pretty scary i'd say. People got hurt doing that.

the heart wants what it wants

2010-12-11T07:14:00.000-08:00

I’m always a mess. I can never keep my own secrets. I laugh too hard at stupid things. My favorite songs can make me cry. I always watch for 11:11, but miss it more than I notice it. I live in the past, in the memories I have with the people I love. I hate thinking about reality and I’m so homesick that it’s not even funny. But not homesick in a missing my house kind of way, maybe it’s more like heartsick for all the things that I can’t get back. It’s hard for me to define myself, I guess I’m just a cliche. I don’t want to be the heroine in some tragic love story.

You just gotta ignite the light

2010-10-31T07:45:00.000-07:00

saya baru aja baca blog orang (yang saya kenal)

Dan itu "wow..!!" emang dari awal saya ketemu dia saya udah kagum banget sama orang ini. saya juga sudah pernah baca liveblogging dia sebelumnya, dan posting-an dia yang terbaru ini bikin saya makin WOW sama dia.

ehhmm... saya bingung kalo harus jelasin apa yang dia tulis, tapi intinya the minute saya selesai baca itu, saya langsung deg "The first thing that crossed my mind was: Well, I guess anything could happen. And that, I think is what started to draw me in – that anything can happen." yaa... kira-kira begitu. saya berpikiran persis seperti apa yang dia tulis. saya langsung berpikir kalo semua mua hal yang saya selalu hesitant at first in to doing it, sebenernya itu akan nggak apa-apa at the end of the day -nya.

hem, mungkin yang saya omongin barusan itu terlalu vague yaa... biasa, old habbit die hard. saya punya kebiasaan kalo nyeritain sesuatu semuanya itu dalam pembawaan yang tersirat. beberapa orang nganggep nya emang saya nya aja yang kalo cerita setengah-setengah. padahal niat nya nggak gitu. saya punya bawaan kalo cerita ke orang sedikit saya tahan, apa yang sebenernya saya mau omongin. a little hint here and there, pake sedikit harapan mereka ngeh sama apa yang saya maksud. beberapa orang ngeh apa yang saya maksud, beberapa orang nggak. tapi itu sih nggak masalah.

anyway, kembali ke tulisan orang itu.

huh... saya pikir semua tentang tulisan orang itu udah saya kasih tau sejelas yang saya bisa (not even close) jadi yaa... :)

weirdly cool

2010-09-14T08:03:00.000-07:00

berapa kali pun diliat baju ini memang sangat aneh and yet..... she could pull this off. (only katy perry can do such thing)

Love Birds :)

2010-08-19T09:40:00.000-07:00

I freakin' love these two more than anything. I just…can’t even. Like, seriously, they’re amazing. And have so much in common: they both went to the same college, had the same friends, Austin had a failed engagement, Sophia had a failed marriage, both their mom’s had cancer, they’re both super dedicated to the environment and making the world a better place, gah. but yet, they're so different from each another. its like they're filling one another. After all the shit that Chad scumbag Murray put Sophia through, I am so happy that she’s found Austin, a guy that obviously respects, cares, cherishes, and loves her. It’s evident in the way that look at each other off-screen and on-screen how in love they are. I adore how close Sophia is with Austin’s family and he with hers. This is the first relationship since Chad that Sophia has been super public about, so to me, that says a lot about how much she values their relationship and that she sees a future with him. Over the course of their relationship, anytime Austin has ever been asked about his relationship with her, he has always been very coy and humble about it, and I love that. Honestly, I have no doubt in my mind that these two are going to wind up getting married and have lots of wicked beautiful babies. I can go on and on about these two, but for now, I think I’ll leave it at that ;)

and oh... a little something that austin says about sophia, "I love to watch her soar" Couldn't we love him even more already??!! ^^

i just write stuff so i could remember it all

2010-08-18T07:51:00.000-07:00

I'm a sucker for an update, i know. my bad...

anyway... okay, so as you may know. I'm officially not a high school student anymore. *yeay me, for graduate* right now, I'm attending trisakti university, for major law faculty. and as you (also) may know, all my friends is scatter all over the place. some in different city, some in different country. its pretty sad actually when i think about it, but i try not to dwell on that. cause we did, go to different university. and there's nothing i could do to change any of that... i try to see it like what Brooke Davis and Lucas Scott says when their high school is over.

"we're not gonna sad, nothings gonna change. we all be friends forever i know it"
"look, in four years, we're gonna be back right here. done with college, and whoever we will be"

it seems like a lot has been going on to tell actually. but its a "no way" way I'm catching on everything in one blog post, it'll be like a short novel to tell. besides, its not like that i need to. i'm pretty positive that is not gonna be everyday I'm posting here. well, lets face it, I'm one of those 'indolent girl' who likes to write everything in implicit mode. and i do diary... ... two diary, actually. since (hate to admit this) I'm a little crazy over what and where i write, so i have to categorize it. So this blog is like something light. something that i can babbling myself into (without have to explain it clearly 'what the hell did i talking about') and not to mention, i have tumblr and twitter too... and another web that i gotta taking care of.

anyway, i know its not much.. hell, its barely average. i feel like is enough for now(i know, so much for an update huh??) the truth is, i don't really have much to say for now (and FYI, like i'm gonna actually put it here, IF i have much to say) okay for now, I'm gonna close it with a little Lucas Scott inside voice... (and idea from friend of mine, you know who you are)

"sometimes it feels like it was yesterday. we graduates high school, saying good bye. that feeling that you get at seventeen or eighteen that nobody in the history of the world has ever been this close, has ever love as fiercely or laughed as hard or cared as much. sometimes it feels like it was yesterday and sometimes it feels like someone else's memory."

B word

2010-07-25T08:19:00.000-07:00

Yes. You know what I'm talking about. -- Go shovel your own grave and lie in it!!!!

its a simple concept

2010-07-14T21:22:00.000-07:00

Because really trusting you means i might have to admit things i don't want to. And that probably scares me just as much as everything else that's been going on.

2010-06-17T17:33:00.000-07:00

Remember when boys meant “yuck” and friends were new. Dreams were unshattered and worries were few. Recess was too short and life too long. Decisions came easy w/o the need to belong. Storks delivered babies and passions weren’t so strong. Friendships were unbroken - right was right, wrong was wrong. Bad things didn’t happen, only skinned knees brought tears. The nightlight in its socket quieted all of our fears. Farewell meant just for summer and real friends didn’t part. The fun went on forever & never left a broken heart.

HATE

2010-05-26T23:13:00.000-07:00

at first, i want to use pink. now i feel like i should use black.. or maybe mud color..

Dare To Dance

2010-04-18T17:14:00.000-07:00

i'd like to say thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you. yesterday was a ~~super tremendous~~ excitement blast. i don't know if there's a word for it. i love love love love everything about it. My heart was saying, "god, i wish i could doing this for the longest time" all the time. i don't want it to end, i don't. it was priceless...

i love it :)

Brooke and Peyton

2010-04-12T03:03:00.000-07:00

Brooke: Hello?
Peyton: Hi. Is this the Safe Rides program?
Brooke: It sure is.
Peyton: Well, I was wondering if you could come pick me up.
Brooke: Of course.
Peyton: Good. I’d love to feel safe for a night. Thanks.

2x19 - “I’m Wide Awake, It’s Morning”

when someone asked what’s the definition of friendship to me… i’d say, “have you seen how Brooke and Peyton care for each other??”

Spirit in the Night

2010-03-10T17:09:00.001-08:00

you get ideas from daydreaming. you get ideas from being bored. you get ideas all the time. The only difference between writers and other people is we notice when we're doing it.

i write what i feel, i say what i mean. you can't buy sincerity

2010-03-06T23:37:00.000-08:00

I'd like to tell today's youth that no matter where life takes you, big cities, small towns, you'll inevitably come across small minded people who think they're better than you. people who think that material things, or being pretty, or being popular, automatically make you a worthwhile human being. I'd like to tell today's youth that none of these things matter. unless you have strength of character, integrity... and if you're lucky enough to have any of these thing, don't ever sell out. Don't ever sell out. So when you meet a person for the first time, don't judge them by their station in life. cause who knows, that person just might end up being your best best best people. So in time, that's all that we're going to be to each other anyway, this population of memories. Some wonderful and endearing, some less so, but taken together, those memories help make us who we are and who we will be. so whether you're with each other now or you're merely in each others thought, remember each other on that road ahead. And i hope that no matter where your travels lead you in this life... you'll always take your heart with you.

You Call it Madness, I Call it Love

2010-03-05T23:51:00.000-08:00

I'm no Oscar Wilde, but i kinda wish i am. so that i could write something so amazing about someone who wrote something that simply so stunning about me. but im not that stunning, she does.

so i figured out a way to make it fair with her. so she know, what i think about her all these times. even after 3 years when we're not in the same school anymore. i quoted it from my diary.

this is 31 december 2009

"di tulisan gw hari ini tahun kemaren, ada beberapa orang yang namanya nggak gw sebut. and i kinda feel like i should. nadiya, della, arien... gw bisa mulai catch up sama mereka baru tahun ini. terutama arien. gw sedikit ngerasa sayang baru bisa catch up sama mereka tahun ini. this year i've been remind what a good bestfriend they are. i miss them, i do. so much."

this is 8 november 2009

"habis itu, gw langsung inget what a great bestfriend she is... (this is what separated me than other people, people might have bestfriend whose probably a well-manner, smart, nice, beautiful, polite, or even a backstabber, saint, jerk, bitch, crap... me? i'm lucky enough just to know her)

its crazy how she always wrote these amazing things about me. well, maybe for you it is not something that was so amazing. But for me it is. And last, this is all i can say, you may refer me to brooke davis (such a compliment right there, haha) and i wish i could refer you to... whoever that is so great, so smart, so loyal, incredibly beautiful and so true to herself and others, but i couldn't. There's no character out there who could be refering to you. You are much better than any great character that i know, and you are one of kind.

that's the least i can say about you, rien.

my top ten plus two ;)

2010-02-13T01:42:00.000-08:00

AMERICAN IDOL SEASON 9 IS AMAZING ^^
i love it, its better than ever (so ryan would say, haha) and here are my wish list on top 24 next week:

1. Andrew Garcia
2. Didi Benami
3. Haley Vaughn
4. Tim Urban
5. Michael Lynche
6. Ashley Rodriguez
7. Janell Wheeler
8. Charity Vance
9. Tasha Layton
10. Lacey Brown

11. Katie Stevens
12. Tyler Grady (he's just uber cute ^^)

Moi

2010-02-06T16:53:00.000-08:00

I'm not going through an odd phase. I really am, odd.

i love this new series, i hope you too

2010-02-02T08:04:00.001-08:00

"three snaps on a Z formation"

2010-01-30T05:19:00.001-08:00

-katy perry

okay, updates..
err right now is like the last 6 months in high school (at least i hope so) and i've been doing like a tons of try out, a bunch new homeworks everyday to get done to (thanks to bu bestie and bu diah for these), new materials lesson to be studying, old materials lesson to be remembered and not to mention a whole nother problem if there's a subject that i don't get it (helmynthospora oryyzae, binatang apa itu?)

so yeah, thing has been pretty crappy interesting for me.

one tree hill. okay, the last thing i've tell you guys, is how suck Julian is and how i hate how stupid Julian is cause sticking for Alex. i mean come on, i know she's your friend and all. but that's just wrong dude! you started to see as if you like her (and ps:if Julian turns out like Alex, i swear to god i will kill him)... however, for the record, i find it i still love him indeed. hhaha. after episode 13 (weeks go by like days) i know that brulian is still alive

they're also real life couple :)

life unexpected. serial baru, baru 2 episode. (seriously, pick it up girls.. its good)

i find Katy perry interesting (since i watch her on idol last night). she is.. definitely different.
and oh, i find it I'm scared of lady gaga. if she show up in my room in night time, i probably gonna scream. (no, im not gonna put her picture here. she's insane, tell you what)

what's the word for boy if they're being a bitch?

2010-01-15T05:09:00.000-08:00

ps: langsung bete ga sih ma julian???!!!!

still.. it took my breath away

2010-01-08T21:58:00.000-08:00

Chandler: Hey, you know what I was thinking? When we get married, are you gonna change your last name to Bing?

Monica: No.

Chandler: Why not?

Monica: Bing’s weird.

8x09 The One With The Rumor

10x30 The One with Ross Tan

9x10 The One With Christmas In Tulsa

"I feel like I'm losing my best friend. i can't believe this could be, the end"

i remember being 13 and fell in love with this

2010-01-04T09:11:00.001-08:00

~1.01 The Pilot

"I’m sorry. You seem like a really nice kid."
"It’s okay. I get it. You have a really nice family."

Seth: I don’t know, some of these GEORGE guys, they look so idealistic.
Summer: You got nothing to worry about. Just remember, this isn’t goodbye. You’re my destiny, Cohen.
Seth: Go save the world, Summer Roberts.

~4.16 The end's not near, its here

Ryan: Who are you?

Marissa: Whoever you want me to be

we're young, we're fine

2009-12-28T15:27:00.002-08:00

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I feel exactly the same way

2009-12-27T09:19:00.001-08:00

The truth is, I don't really like to think about college. Cause that means high school's over. After graduation, everyone will probably go play basketball. Or sing or start record labels, -and I'll have to start all over. Alone. I'm sure I'll be fine. But like I said, I don't like to think about it.

-Brooke Davis

Hello Peaches!!

2009-12-26T06:49:00.001-08:00

She made out money out of this things.
peaches geldof

I wish i could...

Every Night is Another Story

2009-12-25T22:17:00.000-08:00

Its like 6 days until new years. So i thought I'm gonna put a list for.... i dont know, you name it.. for everything this year.

So, here are the 10 songs I'm currently listen this year:
1. Heart - Annie Stela
2. You Wait For Rain - Kyler England
3. I and Love and You - The Avett Brothers
4. Mundo De Caramelo - Danna Paola
5. Shine - Anna Nalick
6. Bigger Than Love - My Favorite Highway (pick it up girls, it's good)
7. Against All Odds - Westlife feat Mariah Carey
8. Send It On - Disney Channel Star
9. I Can Feel a Hot One - Manchester Orchestra
10. Something by Bethany Joy... or Joshua Radin or like Hedley, Miley Cyrus or i don't know, maybe MJ?

okay, here's the deal : its not really fair to only put up 10 songs where in fact i have like 1005 songs in my itunes. Um.. alright, Here are my top 10 movie this year:

1. 2012
2. The Proposal
3. Bride wars
4. Ghost of Girlsfriends past
5. The Blindside
6. Fame
7. Whip it
8. The Narrows
9. umm.. table for three?? anything by sophia bush, really..
10. something like Case 39? or maybe The box, or The Lovely Bones, or Love Happens.. if only i already watch it.

okay, note-to-self: gotta expand the list to more than 10.

Things i said to myself:
1. Scared good. it means you have something to lose
2. Just because people do horrible things, doesn't mean they're horrible people
3. There's nothing to be afraid of. its just life
4. Just because the world says something ugly, doesn't mean it is
5. Things happen. We can't explain them, we can't control them. but they do happen.
6. To not let the bitter ones change how awesome you are.
7. Its alright letting yourself go. as long as you get yourself back.
8. You'll never become old and wise, if you aren't young and crazy.
9. You can't change it, but you can fix it.
10. When you gotta go... you gotta go.

Top 10 quotation this year:
1. What doesn't kill you make you stronger -anonymous
2. People are gonna label you. its how you overcome those label, that's what matter -chase, OTH
3. Hidup itu pilihan. bahkan ketika kalian nggak memilih, kalian memilih -Bu Etty
4. Kalo kamu hidup nyari kesalahan orang, nggak selesai hidup kamu -Bu Rahmi
5. Stand up for what you believe in, the truth matter. So tell it.. no matter what -Haley James, OTH
6. Believe that dreams comes true everyday, because they do -Lucas Scott, OTH
7. I call this gossip girl era -Arien Kartika
8. Because Integrity and loyalty still matter -Miranda, OTH
9. Sometimes the beauty is in the attempt -Julian Baker, OTH
10. When your legs are tired, walk with your heart -Paulo Coelho

Tv couple of the year:
:)

New this year:
Jazz, namarina

Big no no moment:
dijorokin ke kolam renang (not funny boys) ;)

Goodbye 2009 picture:

its been a great run.
later guys. xxo

if i cry, IF

2009-12-24T03:07:00.000-08:00

AMELIA

Matthew Perryman Jones

Sad like a melody sung by a symphony
striking a chord.
Standing here looking blind,
stumble around to find my way thru your door.

Do you wanna know why?
Do you wanna know why?

Hungry as starving fire killing to feed desire.
What do you do?
We’re born into vanity, bones feeling everything.
Are we alone?

Do you wanna know why?
Cause I wanna know why

Say it, Amelia
Say it’s true,
that life’s worth all the dying we do.
Oh, Amelia

Say it, Amelia
Say it’s true,
that life’s worth all the dying we do.
Oh, Amelia

A beautiful melody sung by a symphony,
you’re striking a chord

Jennifer Love Hewitt

2009-12-23T21:38:00.000-08:00

hey.. i know i haven't been round lately. busy - you can say. so listen, holiday season comin. i thought there's not much i can do these days. other than blogging. and I've been trying to catch up with ghost whisperer, its up to season 5 now.. and its pretty amazing. And because i watched ghost whisperer these past few days, it brought me to whole sets of... Jennifer love Hewitt

well, i do remember watch her movies when i was a little. in fact, i kinda like her.. uh, and i also like her song too. they say its bad recording, i say it fantastic. barenaked?? love will show you everything?? come on people, its marvelous. so that's what brought me to this... if only (you know, that movie about second chance in love. about what we're gonna do if we can change the past for people we love). as far as i remembered nobody watch that movie with dry eyes. and there's this conversation that i kinda pour my heart into it.

Ian Wyndham: I Love you.
Samantha Andrews: Ooh I Love you too.
Ian Wyndham: I wanna tell you why I love you.
Samantha Andrews: It's... It's raining, you know that right.
Ian Wyndham: I have to tell you this and you need to hear it. I loved you since I met you, but I wouldn't allow myself to truly feel it until today. I was always thinking ahead, making decisions soaked with fear... Today, because of you... what I learned from you; every choice I made was different and my life has completely changed... and I've learned that if you do that, then you're living your life fully... it doesn't matter if you have five minutes or fifty years. Samantha if not for today, if not for you I would never have known love at all... So thank you for being the person who taught me to love... and to be love.
Samantha Andrews: I don't know what to say.
Ian Wyndham: You don't have to say anything... I just wanted to tell you.

isn't that just crazy??? argh, it seem so sweet and so sincere. i love it :)

They say "good mourning" and then "goodbye"

2009-09-27T08:33:00.001-07:00

So, I've just watched the new season premiere of Grey's Anatomy. Season 6 episode 1&2. It was good. It was compelling, inspiring, uplifting, and yet funny at the very same moment. And there's this funny talking between Mer, Iz, and Christina. I envy it, that barbaric honest talk without crap and just sort of hang on with the ride. That's seems sincere for me... weirdly. Thought you should know.

Cristina: These are good! Do they sell these in the cafeteria?
Meredith: No.
Izzie: No, those are the cancer pops.
Cristina: Why do cancer people get all the fun?
Meredith: How do you feel Iz?
Izzie: I'm not looking forward to the hurling that's about to happen, but I feel ok. I feel good.
Cristina: Bailey's on some sort of rampage. I think it's Post O'Malley Stress Disorder.
Meredith: She's not dealing with her grief.
Cristina: You sound like Owen's shrink.
Meredith: Owen's shrink is withholding sex, so she is grumpy and inappropriate.
Izzie: Is Derek doing that too? Withholding sex?
Meredith: Why would Derek withhold sex?
Izzie: Alex is withholding everything. It's like he's afraid, but I don't know what afraid of.
Cristina: He's afraid of the cancer sex.
Meredith: Cristina!
Cristina: He doesn't wanna end up with a cancer pop.
Meredith: CRISTINA!
Izzie: Just shut the hell up. I'm not contagious Cristina.
Cristina: I know that. I would totally have sex with you.

i hate hate

2009-09-23T00:56:00.000-07:00

Well in my house there's this thing that i hate and the way i see it just kept growing and growing and growing and growing and yes... i might spent 1 whole paper just to write "growing and more growing". It called dastard. You see, i'm not the best person you want to talk to if you want to talk trash about someone WHOM I CLOSE TO (no! scratch that.. i don't even like talking behind someone i DON'T close to) it's the kinda situation where i have no doubt to walk away from it no matter what.

And it totally irritated me when someone... say something to me about a person. And i don't agree with that someone. And i told to that someone, "why dont you just talk to the person?" and that someone says, "yeah, i'm about too.." But noooo!!! that someone never did. And after that, the complaining its still the SAME. What do i do?? i told that very same someone to talk to the person. And yet... that someone never did.

So I'm the one whose hearing everything that I'M PERFECTLY SURE that no one else know it.
I'm about to blow up. I was like, "Why dont you all just tell the truth about each other, and if you dont... DON'T bitching and moaning about it. Can't you just keep it to yourself??!!! I did"

Grow the hell up!

Life is for the living, the forgiven and for leaving town alive

2009-09-21T23:22:00.000-07:00

LEAVING TOWN ALIVE - BETHANY JOY GALEOTTI

Spending all your money
Ain’t it funny how the time goes by?
First you start believing
Then you’re leaving for no reason
And you’re wondering why
So till the morning breaks
Go and make your mistakes
Don’t be surprised if your head hurts
Life is for the living, the forgiven and for leaving town alive

Whisper in the ways
Watching days and moving on
You wake up every Monday then suddenly it’s Sunday
And the week is gone
So till the morning breaks
Go and make your mistakes
Don’t be surprised at the sunrise
Life is for the living, the forgiven and for leaving town alive

Oh, do you wonder where it starts
Where it ends
What you find around the bend
Oh, do you wonder where she’s from
Where she goes
No one knows
Now and then you wonder
Why you’re spending all your money
Ain’t it funny how she walks on by?
She had you all believing
Now she’s leaving for no reason
And you’re wondering why

So till the morning breaks
Go and make your mistakes
Don’t be surprised if your heart hurts
Life is for the living, the forgiven and for leaving town alive

Oh, do you wonder where it starts
Where it ends
What you find around the bend
And do you wonder where she’s from
Where she goes
No one knows
Now and then you wonder

Why life is for the living, the forgiven and the leaving town alive
Life is for the living, the forgiven and the leaving town alive

kalo kita bisa ngelewatin semuanya tanpa kecewa atau apapun -- that great sense of expectations and excitement without the disappointment - that would be the perfect state.

"And i think to myself, what a wonderful world"

2009-09-15T22:11:00.000-07:00

-Aselin Debison

Kemaren buka puasa bilingual di rumahnya kobe. hhaaaaahhhhh... How i miss everyone of them. Semenjak sma gw suka mikir kalo diantara SD, SMP, SMA gimana masa yang paling gw suka itu sma. tapi kalo setiap ngelewatin hal-hal yang kaya gitu, gw rasa dalam sekejap hal itu langsung ga berlaku lagi. Kalo lagi kaya gitu semuanya kaya pas banget... You know, when everything feels like exactly where it should be and you have this feeling as if you just perfectly fit at the moment just being you and not have to worry about anything or anyone?? Nah... kalo sama mereka gw ngerasa itu :)

(How i madly in love with it, and i probably always will be)

I never rule anything out, I just follow where I'm lead.

2009-09-13T22:30:00.000-07:00

Egh... third times for me tryin to make this kinda thing, the first two is a crap. i do diary, i don't do tell and leave in someplace where someone can actually read it. I'm introvert enough to say that I'm not really comfortable to actually did this, but instead i do. so... what's that say about me??!

I'll give you a glimpse..

my forever sunlight & my constant happiness

junior high yearbook photo (we were young and happy)

you call it weird, i call it original (my deadly pain killers)

there's a few things that simply never change :))

I'll see you round..
xxo

~nesha